false sense of comfort

i am already restlessssssss. i am already tired of everyone. i have already lost all motivation when it comes to school.


the only times i actually feel guilty is when i do something by accident. or i do something and undesired results ensue. i don't feel guilty often. but when i do it's torture. i try to talk myself out of it by thinking, "it was an accident. you didn't mean it." once it's there looming over me though it's hard to shake. everything takes on an ominous feel and i just want to go home and sit in front of the t.v. for hours.


there will be some moments that are forever branded in my mind, whether i like it or not.