texts to jon from the airport after another weekend of not seeing him

To: Jon

I cant believe that when 

you were my age i was 

only a junior in high 

school. And i cant imagine 

what it must be like to be 

you. I cant imagine what 

its like to be a 21 year old 

boy. I cant even wrap my 

head around my own life.

I have trouble believing 

my life is even real.

Sent:

Sun Mar 21, 4:52pm

To: Jon

I feel like i've lived so

many lives and been so

many people that i'm 

drowning in it all. I feel

like my identity is

fractured rather than

fluent. I feel like all these

lives exist simutaneously

and i cant decide which

one is the most important

or the one i like the best.

Sent:

Sun Mar 21, 4:55pm

To: Jon

And then to think that

other people mihgt feel

the same way and are

also walking around with 

all these past selves and 

all these experiences so

different from my own

just blows my mind.

Sent:

Sun Mar 21, 4:56pm

To: Jon 

And all i really want is to 

know all of someone else

and have them know all

of me and i really think

that is just an

impossibility because

everything gets lost in

translation from one 

person to the next and i

feel especially from girl

to boy or from upper

class to lower class etc

etc etc

Sent:

Sun Mar 21, 5:01pm

To: Jon

I only understand you in 

retrospect if i even 

understand you at all.

Sent:

Sun Mar 21, 5:24pm