Dreams

Jan 29

I was in my car trying to park at this coffee shop to get ice cream and my car stops working. I can sort of steer but I can't break or anything else. I'm also on a lot of ecstasy. I run into one of those parking things and for some reason my car catches on fire. I scream and people are helping me out from the coffee shop and Matt White. The bottoms of my feet are black like 3rd degree burns.

Then I'm near home trying to find my mom's work with Morgan and Ishita. They keep trying to tell me where it's from and I'm like, "You guys, I'm from around here." My feet are still black from the accident.

Then we're in this hotel and everyone is there. Morgan and Ishita are part of this intense girl fight club that makes me very uncomfortable. They keep asking me to join.

Something about getting lost in this guy's house with a boy...

Another part of the story involves two girls who lost their mom...One gets found and can't talk or anything.

Jan 31

I'm home from college except it's not my home because my mom's been living with a guy in Mexico.

I'm on a kid's bike - a tricycle with Brandon Kikendall on a real bike - except it sort of isn't Brandon Kikendall. We're riding through these woods, we smoke pot a couple times. At one point we're on these bleachers and there's two hickish men there.

My tricycle breaks and I call my mom to see if somecan bring my real bike. I ask if Carol could get it if she goes back to Indy or if Linda could bring it if she comes. I feel like we're somewhere in southern Indiana.

I'm on a computer trying to look up my flight times while Lauren's dad is talking to me.

My mom comes to where I'm with Brandon but it's now a kitchen. She mentions something about me being high but I just laugh at her because I'm really not high at all anymore. She starts making me a fried banana and peanut butter sandwich. She tells me about Mexico.

Feb 1

First I'm going back to school after a break. I'm talking to Ms. Hensely and Lili. I tell them that all the people at school look like animals - as in, in my mind they have these animal features.

There's a little boy I'm supposed to be watching in a theater but he crawls away. I'm freaking out but we find him underneath a stranger's seat.

I'm running cross country. I don't know the route but it's inside this confusing house. I hear people talking so I open the door. People from the cross country team are sitting in the room. I ask if it's the end and they say they don't know but that they don't feel like trying anymore.

Feb 2

I'm at a flea market/garage sale with Jon. The clothes are amazing in this one booth/store in a basement and they're only 22 cents each. I'm asking him if I think a certain skirt will fit me but his kind of standoffish and says he doesn't know.

I go with Truman to buy a bunch of pizzas for people who are hanging out around this pool.

Feb 3

I get off an airplane and there's a guy on a motorcycle waiting for me. I get on. I've go to to this dining hall place. This one woman can't get through this turnstile because she's betrayed her country.

We're making CD-ROMS for The Sims 3. After talking about it I really want to go play it so I do.

We're walking through town with two other CD-ROM makers. We hear about these haunted places. The first is this place in the woods before the scarier place. It's like this place with water and we're driving the motorcycle above it. I'm complaining about all the mosquitoes. There's supposed to be alligators/hippos in the water. We go to leave. In a cave part of the place there are people - a teenage guy and girl and a young boy. I start talking to the little boy who is rambunctious. The motorcycle guy - my friend - starts flirting with the girl. He says he'll see her at church and then we leave.

Feb 10

I'm at a hotel with Madi. We're talking when there's a knock at the door. It's someone from my floor telling us to be quiet. They also have stuffed crust pizza.

The next day we're having dinner when Lauren walks in. She asks where my grandma is and I say in the hospital.

Feb 19

I'm on my way to Video Art with Dana and Will and we're late. Will is going to Photography but he's so late he just comes with us. We go into a big auditorium with a lot of other students to watch a presentation. At first it's really interesting but then we get bored. Dana gets up to go somewhere and I'm left alone with Will. He leans his head on the seat and he's sitting in front of me. I tousle his hair then pretend I didn't when he looks up. Then some bitties come over and Dana is back. All the bitties are flirting with Will. I kick one of them and then act nonchalant but Will sees me. The presentation is over so we leave. We go into a big room. I think Will leaves.

Now I'm walking with Madi and Eric by water. Wherever we are it's cold but not freezing. Eric talks about how the drinking age in this state is 18. I say where I'm from it's 21. He says that's a shame you won't be able to drink if I take you the the harbor. I say yes I will I'm 18.

There's this weird railroad track thing we need someone to cross. There's a group of people discussing it. We decide to use one of the children upstairs since they're small enough to do it. The children volunteer by writing down their names. I choose a name at random: E. Audrey Rose. When I go to the room with the children a little girl steps forward and a boy says, "Don't go" but she ignores him and doesn't seem bothered that the task is dangerous. I explain to her what she has to do. It's too dark so she'll have to do it tomorrow.

I'm on a bus and Stacy is sitting next to me. I ask her why she wrote her name as E. Audrey Rose. She says she thinks it's beautiful. I say Audrey reminds me of this pretentious, anorexic girl and do impressions of her. Two girls in the seat in front of us turn around and say, "Pretentious means like stuck up right?" And I nod and talk to them for a bit. They remind me of Brian's cousin and her friends.

Now I'm going into a room with these boys and I know Jon's going to be there. I think we had come from Jon's apartment but Jon had gotten ahead of us. I'm expecting to see him with his new girlfriend. When I walk in there's three or four boys and a couple middle-aged women and a baby and Cathy Hodson. Cathy talks about how she knows ma and how her kids used to torture me. I say no that badly. The guy next to me says I was talking about how bad they teased me earlier. Jon is sitting next to a fatter girl and I don't think it''s his girlfriend. He's ignoring my existence. I start playing with the baby. One of the guys asks me if I want some cereal. Some of the people get up and go outside including Jon. The guy who asked me if I wanted cereal says they're going to smoke marijuana then asks me what kind of cereal I want.

Feb 21

Jon invites me over to his new place. While I'm sitting on a couch waiting for him to get back from the bathroom a woman walks in and starts talking to me. I assume she's a neighbor he's friends with. She's actually cool to talk to and starts massaging my shoulders. She leaves and I'm still waiting for Jon. This woman with a clipboard and three guys walk up. She tells me they're having group. I get up and go out in the hallway and that's when I realize I'm on the psych ward of a hospital. It's the same hospital I was in last year. I call Jon and ask him why he didn't tell me.


After that last dream I quit writing down my dreams because I didn't want to remember them anymore. I'm going to start again.